So my hair is awkward, my business is awkward, and our living situation is awkward. Ay caramba.
*an awkward picture to match an awkward everything else;)My business has actually never been better. I got my last check today (last expected check anyway).. and even though I don't know when I'll be getting more (as in, more clients. Since clients=paychecks) I'm actually quite content. Whyyyyy? Well part of it has to do with feeling like no matter how much I clean off my plate I always manage to pile more on. And this is all having kids that DON'T go to soccer practice, or even school. I know life is just going to get busier. So I really want to feel like I have a handle on what is going on NOW- before I get to the even crazier stuff. I feel like I haven't caught up on anything that has been in my mental to-do list. Most of my "busy-ness" is self-inflicted though. I need to want to do less, I guess. (wow that sounds highly unmotivated for my taste). There's a lot I want to accomplish and that's OK I think... this is why I don't pinterest (random side note). If I did all I'd ever have were "ideas" and "plans" and not enough time to make them happen.) When I get really busy with my photography business, takeout happens, kids end up watching too much TV, and my arm gets that cramped carpel tunnel feeling again. There needs to be more balance when things go that way.
I've had offers for business but I've turned them down. I'm GRATEFUL for a bit of a break.. where as, in Arizona, I felt like I couldn't say no to a gig or I was denying myself. I don't feel like that anymore. I've decided I'm going to put a limit on how many shoots I do per month. One a week MAX. Because basically if I don't, I'll miss out on so much of my children's childhood! I'm still SO gung ho about it though. I'm not quitting or stopping. Connie B Photography is unstoppable!! haha! Anyways...I'm just slowing down so I can savor the moments I have with my kids while they are still little. *I have another "Photography & Me post in the works so I'll digress...
moving again! I pretty much knew all along that Kentucky wasn't a forever thing. I didn't want to really say that though for fear of no one caring to get to know me. Plus I wasn't sure it would just be one year... but it will be. Now that things are... well, the way they are going to be, I figure it doesn't matter that I'm saying it. Can you believe we've already been here for 4 months? That means we only have 8 to go until we move again.
I feel.... oh.....*exhausted of these short moments in different places. I met some great girls in Oklahoma that I really wish I could still do play dates with. I've met great girls HERE- but I still sometimes feel like I'm watching the clock- waiting for something more permanent. At the same time I want things to zoom by, I want the clock to slow down too. I want to feel settled for five minutes before we up and go again. I felt pretty okay about having to move again (I mean, we were going to be moving to some place SO AWESOME. But lately our plans have been changing and our big plans are taking us somewhere we didn't expect, most likely. NOW I'm not sure that... number one, it'll be as exciting as our original plan and two... even where we'll be going! We don't even know yet. Ugh! It's hard having things so up in the air in my life but I'm sure I'll grow out of the awkwardness someday.